Look For Me

LOOK FOR ME (Still) - Courtesy Lucy Kerr

Look For Me

LOOK FOR ME is a multimedia project intersecting a two channel film and a live performance. The film component of this work was shot on 16mm using an Arri S camera supplied by the cinema arts organization Mono No Aware. The piece is a visual portrait of a female figure in conversation with her memory.  The performer on stage is multiplied through the projected images of herself in distant landscapes. This work is inspired by Simone de Beauvoir’s notion of ambiguity, in which a person is painted as being both subject and other. In LOOK FOR ME, the figure is extracted from herself as Other. The audience is invited to witness the performer as if she is seeing herself through the lens of her imagination.


Shot in Brooklyn, NY, in Marfa, Texas and in the oceans of the east coast, this project is directed and produced by Lucy Kerr with assistance from the cinema arts organization Mono No Aware and the Center for Performance Research. LOOK FOR ME premiered as part of the cinema arts festival, Mono No Aware X at the Center for Performance Research in November 2016. It was also performed at Cucalorus Film Festival in Wilmington, North Carolina and at The MATCH in Houston, Texas.

Lucy Kerr (director, choreographer, producer) is a Brooklyn-based choreographer, filmmaker, performance and installation artist, and writer. Kerr was born in Houston, Texas in 1990.  She holds a B.A. in Philosophy and a B.A. in Dance from The University of Texas at Austin and was the grand-prize winner of the 2014 Co-op / George H. Mitchell Awards for Academic Excellence for her undergraduate thesis. Kerr was selected as a 2014-2016 Fellow at LEIMAY in Brooklyn, NY. She creates films and performances inspired by the dissonance between reality, memory, and imagination. She often combines film and performance mediums as a way to embody the many simultaneous and contrasting dynamics of personal experience. Kerr has created immersive installations for The Chimney NYC and Co-Lab Projects (Austin, TX). Her performances have been presented at IDIO Gallery and CAVE home of LEIMAY. She will present work at The Brooklyn Museum, Triskelion Arts, and Metrotech Park in September as part of the 2016 BEAT Festival. Kerr’s films have been screened by Mono No Aware and Kerr’s dance film, Burning As It Runs, will make its world premiere in October at the San Francisco Dance Film Festival. Kerr was the main writer for LEIMAY’s publication accompanying the production of ‘borders’ at BAM. Her own writing involves research in existentialism, performance and film theory, social theory, and Eastern thought.

Produced by Lucy Kerr with support from Mono No Aware and The Center For Performance Research.


Clay Wilson is composing the music for LOOK FOR ME. Clay Wilson’s backstory is largely a mystery, though the Brooklyn techno auteur has revealed that his younger days were filled with classical music education and avant-garde jazz composition. Somehow, he found his way into techno, particularly the heady offerings of The Bunker, the storied New York party which ultimately proved to be a massive influence. Wilson officially debuted in 2013 with an edition of Styles Upon Styles’ Bangers & Ash series, and also took part in a collaborative record for the label alongside Certain Creatures and techno veteran Brendan Moeller. However, when The Bunker launched its own label in 2014, Wilson quickly became one of its core artists, authoring the young imprint’s second-ever release and returning with the Skandha EP in 2015. A rising profile has led to an increased presence on the club circuit—both as a DJ and a live act—and he’s joined The Bunker crew for numerous showcases, including a stop at Berghain. In 2016 he began working with Birds of Prey, an ambient group focused on live improvisations of a more meditative nature than his regular techno fare. While his deliberate nature probably means that we’ll never be inundated with solo releases, his attention to detail does result in richly textured, loosely psychedelic musical excursions that are well worth taking. Wilson also scored Lucy Kerr’s 2015 film, Burning As It Runs.


Carmen Hilbert (director of photography) is an emerging cinematographer based both in Brooklyn, New York and in Austin, TX. Formerly a student of neuroscience, she brings an awe of the natural world and exacting technological rigor to her work. She completed her degree in Radio Television and Film at the University of Texas at Austin, where her work on Brittany Reeber’s “Psycho Billy” garnered her an ASC Student Heritage Award nomination. Her leadership, technical abilities, and eye for lighting are informed by several years’ work in the grip and electric departments. She has directed photography for shorts and music videos that have screened at festivals across the country and internationally. The upcoming Art Fair Fever, written and directed by the celebrated artist Mark Flood, will be her first feature project as a cinematographer.


Elyse Desmond (performer) received her BS in Dance and Theater from Manhattanville College in 2015. While in school she studied with Ara Fitzgerald, Peter Pucci, Hannah Fox, Chisa Hiadaka, Erwin Mas, and many others. She also had the opportunity to dance in pieces for artists such as Julio Monge and Ann Marie DeAngelo. While in school she also studied with Doug Varone and Dancers, Pilobolus, and The Rutgers University Dance Conservatory. She has performed and appeared in films for Marta Renzi (Marta Renzi and The Project Company), and performs for Laurence Goldhuber (Big Man Arts). She currently dances for Emily Smith in Not For ReTale and Lucy Kerr.


David Bartner (editor) is an editor who lives in New York. He has worked on projects that have shown on A&E and TLC, the Contemporary Arts Museum of Houston, and various film festivals. For a couple fun years, he ran a microcinema in Austin, TX called The Mad Stork Cinema. He graduated from the Radio, Television, and Film department at the University of Texas at Austin in 2011.

Lauren Bumgarner (production intern, assistant director) is currently a senior studying Film & Media at the University of Oklahoma. Lauren has created ten short films, all of which she has performed the roles of cinematographer, writer, director, editor, and choreographer. Lauren has worked alongside Francis Ford Coppola as a sound assistant for his live cinema proof of concept, “Distant Vision,” where Coppola screened and provided feedback for Lauren’s work. Many of her films have been screened and awarded regionally in Oklahoma. Four of Lauren’s works have been screened internationally at the Clermont-Ferrand International Short Film Festival. Lauren was awarded Best Film and Audience Choice for her film, “You Won’t Drown” at the University of Oklahoma’s Student Film Festival and Redbud Film Festival. Lauren is the most recent recipient of the University of Oklahoma Film & Media Studies’ Ned Hockman Filmmaking Award, an annual award given to a student for excellence in filmmaking. Two of Lauren’s photography works were juried in to the Goddard Center Fine Art Biennial, one of which was awarded first place in its’ category. Lauren graduates in December 2016. She hopes to serve as an advocate for young women and women in film.

Blanche Jamail (production assistant, second assistant director) is from Houston, Texas. She is currently pursuing a B.S. in Biology and a B.A. in Philosophy at the University of Texas at Austin, where her research interests include critical theory, existentialism, and aesthetics, as well as evolutionary virology and epidemiology. Blanche worked on set for Lucy Kerr’s films Burning As It Runs and LOOK FOR ME. She oversaw the logistics and arrangements for the shoot and assisted Kerr. She also loves to travel, read, do Pilates, and dance to techno.

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